"Smart or Pretty?" "Why Can't I Choose Both?!

Yeah, being told you have an awesome personality is really nice but after being told over and over again it reaches the point where you believe that your personality is the only thing you DO have.  I mean yeah I've been called pretty, cute, even beautiful but it's one thing when someone calls you it and another if you don't feel it nor believe in it. I guess its a self confidence thing or maybe I'm just in denial but until I FEEL like I'm all of those things, Until then, I'll remain known to myself and others as "Casey, the girl with the awesome personality" not "Casey, the beautiful girl who also has a nice personality."

15...

15 years, is how long I've been alive.
14 years, I've been an older sister since she arrived.
13 years, I spent not knowing the truth.
12 years, it took me to say I love you.
11 years, I've been given the same education.
10 years, were based on hands-on demonstrations.
9 years, since the time I saw a dear friend last.
8 years, dreaming about how we were in the past.
7 years, it's been boy since you haven't attended my birthday party.
6 years, 4 times a month to school I've been tardy.
5 years, for me to realize you were the excuse.
4 years, of my heart has endured the abuse.

 

3 years, I've been acting like we were best friends forever.
2 years, I lied to myself...wow, that was clever.
1 year, of going up and down the same path.
0 years, of regret...you do the math.